I believe

Sunday, December 16, 2012
there is more good in this world than evil.  Like everyone I know, I am utterly sick over the horrific tragedy and loss in Sandy Hook, CT.  I sobbed for those families when I found out.  I have cried quiet tears as we learn more and more.  Kate is the EXACT age of most the children that were killed.  Most of them were born in 2006 as she was and it is beyond my wildest understanding how anyone could shoot such innocent little beings.  My brain cannot comprehend it even though I was trained to understand this type of behavior.

This weekend I have prayed a lot.  I have read my Bible a lot.  In fact, I just finished reading it before this post. In times like this I have to cling to God. I know everyone wants to know why.  We will never know why really.  People snap.  People's brains get sick.  Very, very sick.  And they do things that make no sense to the rest of us.

When I told Will about the shooting I asked him to pray for everyone involved.  He said, "I am not going to pray for the shooter Mom."  He was really angry that he took away the lives of little children like his sister.  I felt angry at first too.  I told him that I understood his feelings but Jesus told us to pray for our enemies.  The shooter's family needs prayer too.  The shooter had a deeply troubled soul and it needs prayer.

Just when we begin to think that the world is filled with evil, we see the good.  We hear the stories about the teachers and neighbors who were heroes.  We learn that the principal switched the intercom on to warn other teachers and students and that might have saved them.  We read stories on facebook about the community bringing food and items of comfort to the responders and the families touched by loss.  We see videos of people flocking to churches to pray and comfort one another.

Yes, there is evil in this world but I think if you look around you will see that there is far more good than evil.

Just yesterday, we received an anonymous package in the mail.  It was addressed to Harry and the return address simply said, "A friend."  Inside was a gorgeous wooden cross designed to rest comfortably in his sweet hands.  The note simply said that the person was praying for Harry and that they thought he could use this when he wanted to feel Jesus in his hands.  I cannot even tell you what that package did for us.  Harry is astounded that someone would think of him and what he has been going through and send that to him.  As for me, I was reminded that there is SO MUCH GOOD in the world.  Every day there are people helping other people and that is rarely on the news.  

Thank you "friend."  I love that we don't know who you are.  I love that you chose to give Harry this gift at a time when he needed a boost of faith so desperately.  You are doing God's work.  You have no idea how much your loving gesture meant to us.  I don't even know if you read the blog but somehow I hope you know that you reminded us of the good that is in this world.


28 comments:

  1. I was given that cross by a friend and I love the way it fits in my hand to remind me how close HE is to me.

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  2. Beautiful post, Kim... you are so wise my friend. I will cal you when I think you are awake. xo

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  3. I love this! What a special, thoughtful gift! I shared this on my facebook page yesterday. I love it:
    "When I was a boy and I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me, 'Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.' To this day, especially in times of 'disaster,' I remember my mother’s words, and I am always comforted by realizing that there are still so many helpers - so many caring people in this world." -- Mister Rogers

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    1. I saw that somewhere too and I agree. There are usually more helpers than hurters. We have to look to them.

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  4. The whole thing is so tragic and the loss, grief, and trauma for all those involved must be overwhelming. I keep coming back to the child who did the shooting. I have a 20 year old son and really they are still children in so many ways. I guess I don't look at him as evil. He wasn't well and had some type of psychotic break or something and perhaps he had no "control" of what people would call his free will. Perhaps it was his underlying illness or disability that was behind this. Perhaps it was the treatment (lots of medicines cause psychosis). We all struggle to make sense of this but I feel for this kid and his family. Mental illness is still so under-treated in our country and all of the different developmental and learning issues are so hard to understand, diagnose, and treat effectively. Lots of labels get thrown around and so do lots of drugs, but do people really know what they are dealing with. I think it is the illnesses that are evil and not the poor children who are burdened with them; those child/adults suffer to the point where things like this can happen as a result. So very sad for everyone involved!

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    1. I agree Wendy and that is why EVERYONE need the prayer. Beautifully put.

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  5. I feel for everyone involved... I feel for the parents of the dead children... families, siblings, parents of the dead teachers and staff... and yes, yes, I feel for the Lanza family too. I hate guns. I hate them passionately but I do not think this is where our problems lie. It goes back to health care and mental health care. Mental illness needs to be taken more seriously. It needs to be made more accessible and more affordable and we all need to understand it better. We are too quicky to judge, accuse and point fingers and too slow to accept and understand.

    And with what Wendy said - yes many drugs do cause psychosis... my friend's husband took his own life a year ago after switching meds for depression. It is entirely possible his mother, or anyone, never saw this coming....

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  6. What a good post. And what a thoughtful gift that was sent to Harry.

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  7. I believe, too! You are so beautiful Kim, and I am glad that you are here in our blog world!!

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  8. So beautiful - the cross and the act!

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  9. Beautifully put Kim. Even though I'm just sick, sad, and angry over this I do believe that there is so much good in the world.

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  10. Beautiful post! I have been a puddle. Perhaps because it's physically so close to me, it just feels like it could have been my friends and family at that school.

    I too pray for the killer's family. I can't imagine the burden they must feel. Not only did they lose two family members, but the other son was taken in handcuffs at first (traumatic I imagine on top of learning your mother and brother were dead) and the world was turned upside down by the actions of one. That must be horrible for those family members.

    I've just been in constant prayer. But am also trying very hard to thank God for all the little wonderful things in life. Puppy cuddles, something selling on ebay for twice what I thought it would (hello happy surprise the week before cmas for something I no longer want!), snowflakes that are pretty but don't stick, really good coffee... God is good. And if I don't repeat it over and over, I will never stop crying.

    KK

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  11. Hi Kim,
    As a long time reader of your blog I find so much comfort in knowing you are praying for our little town. We live just under a mile from where the shooting occurred. If we hadn't decided to keep our sweet Ella in preschool one more year she would have been at that school. We are heartbroken and , but I still also believe there are more helpers in this world

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    1. I have been trying to think of a comforting reply to your comment but everything sounds so trite. I am so thankful that your sweet Ella was not at the elementary school that day. I am so thankful for her safety. But I am so saddened that your community is suffering this unimaginable loss. My friends and I pray a healing rosary at my house every Monday morning and you can be assured that we will be praying for your community this morning.

      Blessings to you all as you find you way though this time.

      Kim

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  12. Thank you for your prayers for us. I have read your blog for a long time and pray for your family daily. We live 1/2 mile from Sandy Hook school and our daughter would have been there if she hadn't done a 3rd year at Montessorri this year. We are heartbroken and devestated, but we will keep praying and finding the good in this world of ours.

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    1. I can't imagine how you're feeling right now. I wish peace and healing for you and your community.

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  13. Kim, Thank you for your kind words. We live only 1 hour from Sandy Hook and it hit us so hard that something so evil could happen so close. Newtown is a beautiful "Norman Rockwell" type town. It just goes to show you that tragedy can happen anywhere.

    We will continue to pray for Harry and that everything works out for him. It was such a sweet gesture to receive a cross from someone who cares.

    Merry Christmas!
    Hugs from CT.
    Caroline

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    1. Caroline, I am sure you are having such a hard time with this being so close to home. I cannot even imagine. I will continue to [ray for healing for your community.

      Thank you fo your prayers. They mean so much to us.

      Hugs,
      Kim

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  14. What a beautifully written post and a timely gift from a friend. Thank you for sharing.

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  15. What a lovely post and what a lovely gift from a stranger! I hope it offers comforts and hope that we are all Heavenly Fathers children and he loves us! Happy Holidays!

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  16. Everyone is grieved over this unimaginable tragedy, it's so difficult to find the right words when your children ask you why did God let this happen. All we can do is trust in him knowing He is sovereign and faithful.
    "I have told you these things, so that in Me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart I have overcome the world" JOHN 16:33

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  17. Thank for your post.I'm praying for the children and their teacher but also for parents, brothers and sisters who have to live with this tragedy.
    ( sorry for my english )

    Anne ( from France )

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  18. So much power in prayer -- hope that the community and nation feels it. Keeping you all in my prayers too.

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  19. Just the post I needed to read today, thank you.

    xx,

    Marianne

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  20. You are such a talented writer with an amazing heart. You are a wonderful representative of the Catholic faith... Thank you for this post.

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  21. So beautiful: the words, the cross, the thought of someone to send it. Thanks for sharing this with us.

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  22. lovely cross (looks like olivewood?) and lovely person who sent that. I wish I knew where to find one just like it.

    all my best to you ALL for a joyful (and health-full) Christmas and New Year! love to you, donna

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    1. Donna ,
      It is called a holding cross and that one is olive wood . You can google them but they are from a company on Plano Tx.
      Merry Christmas!

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