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Tuesday, June 3, 2008
I wonder


I wonder if she sang happy birthday to you in her heart this morning as I sang it to you (and you sang it too).

I wonder if she is thinking and dreaming about you all day long as I am too.

I wonder what it was like for her two years ago when you came into this world.

I wonder if her heart breaks today not knowing where you are.

I wonder if she can even imagine the beautiful life you have and the love that surrounds you.

I wonder if she knows that I pray for her today and everyday.

I wonder if she prays for you too.

I wonder if she knows the joy you have brought our family.

I wonder if she aches for you.  I know that feeling too.

I wonder if she knows how very blessed we feel and how thankful we are for her selfless love.



Umbrella Joy

Happy 2nd Birthday Kate Emerson!

(Kate has a fever today but I took her to one of my favorite spots to take photos and she played around there.  To me, she looks sick in the photos (watery eyes, runny nose, solemn) but I still wanted to document her special day!  She had a blast paying in the rocks and I'll post those photos soon:)
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69 comments:

  1. KateJune 3, 2008 at 12:56 PM

    Beautiful pictures of your lovely Kate...and lovely sentiments as well...they made me tear up.

    I am sorry Kate is not feeling well. Happy birthday...and feel better soon!

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  2. LaurenJune 3, 2008 at 12:57 PM

    Beautiful -- the words and Miss Kate! I love her dimple!

    Happy, Happy Birthday!

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  3. DebJune 3, 2008 at 1:06 PM

    what a beautiful post Kim! I wonder those same things about Sophie's Mother. We are truly blessed! Hope Kate is feeling better soon!

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  4. AnonymousJune 3, 2008 at 1:11 PM

    Happy Happy Birthday Miss Kate!

    Kim, I love your writing-I wonder. I think we all pray and hope and wonder if our daughter's birth mothers know the love that is surrounding them. I also felt "bitter sweet" on Lily's birthday thinking about how someone had to painfully give her up for reasons we will probably never know or really understand.

    Hope Kate feels better soon. She is such a sweetie and so blessed!

    Blessings to you all!

    Lisa Watson

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  5. Michelle R PhotographyJune 3, 2008 at 1:28 PM

    What a beautiful post. As adoptive parents, our thoughts are very similar, especially on special days such as these. Happy 2nd to your beautiful little girl.

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  6. The OswaldsJune 3, 2008 at 1:36 PM

    Happy Birthday Miss Kate! Thanks for reminding us adoptive mommies to pray for & consider the birth parents.

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  7. SnickerdoodleJune 3, 2008 at 1:45 PM

    Dear darling Kate, Happy sweet 2nd birthday.

    All our love,
    Snick, Sunshine and Brilliance

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  8. Somewhere In The SunJune 3, 2008 at 1:58 PM

    Just beautiful! Sheng ri kuai le Kate! (Happy Birthday)

    Such a beautiful post. I wonder those things as well.

    ~Lynn

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  9. DonnaJune 3, 2008 at 2:20 PM

    What a beautiful post and wonderful thoughts that we all think about on our little ones special day. She is so precious!

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  10. DiJoJune 3, 2008 at 2:51 PM

    So beautiful Kim.... Your words, your prayers, your daughter! I love the first picture!!!! Happy Birthday precious Kate Emerson! Soon I will get to love on you too! I can't wait!

    Love,
    Diana

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  11. t~June 3, 2008 at 2:54 PM

    Simply beautiful.

    Happy 2nd Birthday Kate!

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  12. Pixel Fairy PrincessJune 3, 2008 at 3:07 PM

    Happy Birthday Sweet girl and so sorry that you are not feeling your best. Get well so you can eat lots of cupcake for mommy!
    Ladybug hugs,
    ;D

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  13. AnonymousJune 3, 2008 at 3:22 PM

    what a beautiful child and words. i hope she feels better soon.

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  14. MichelleJune 3, 2008 at 3:23 PM

    Happy birthday sweet, Kate! I hope you feel better soon!

    Kim your post is so beautiful ... both the pictures and the words.

    Warmly,
    Michelle

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  15. Lisa~~June 3, 2008 at 3:28 PM

    Happy #2 Kate.

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  16. MRUJune 3, 2008 at 3:28 PM

    Happy Birthday Miss Kate! Cheers to you and your family (near and far) and many wishes for many more happy birthdays (and healthy next time).

    Your post was beautiful.

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  17. EmilyJune 3, 2008 at 3:37 PM

    She is just beautiful. Loved your post, too!
    Happy 2nd birthday, Kate, and feel better soon!

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  18. OH MY #6June 3, 2008 at 3:41 PM

    Kim,

    This is just lovely. You, are so sweet.

    And, of course, beautiful little Kate.

    Lea
    xo

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  19. ChesnyeJune 3, 2008 at 3:42 PM

    What a beautiful post Kim. I just have tears thinking about all of the love that surrounded Kate at her birth and today!! I hope ahe is already feeling better.
    Thanks for your post about kitchens... I LOVE yours and I know to follow what I want.
    Hugs,
    Chesnye

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  20. bethyJune 3, 2008 at 3:54 PM

    another precious, loving post.
    happy birthday, kate!

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  21. LoriJune 3, 2008 at 4:13 PM

    Happy Birthday to your baby girl!! The words you wrote are beautiful and her pictures are just precious!
    I hope she feels better soon. :)
    Happy 2nd Birthday Kate Emerson!!!

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  22. HannahJune 3, 2008 at 4:16 PM

    Beautiful pictures of your sweet baby.
    I think you sum up the feelings of all moms who have adopted. I know personally I cry the night before my son's birthday each year because with the time difference the night before is the day of in Russia.
    This will be the first year we get to celebrate Sophia's birthday and I am sure it will be the same. Sophia is just a few months younger than your lovely Kate.

    Happy Birthday!
    Hannah

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  23. Sophie's MomJune 3, 2008 at 4:18 PM

    Happy Birthday!!! :)

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  24. JenniferJune 3, 2008 at 4:19 PM

    Love the pictures! What a sweet way to document Kate's birthday by being appreciative for her birth mom.

    Oh, and I am finally sending your quilt squares!!!

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  25. JennJune 3, 2008 at 4:27 PM

    So sweet!

    Happy Birthday Kate!

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  26. SibiJune 3, 2008 at 4:31 PM

    Happy Birthday to sweet baby Kate!
    Your post is simply beautiful and so heartfelt
    and the pictures of her today and at her birthday
    party are just precious. I love the one of you holding
    her in your arms. Love the way you love her.
    You are one really special Mother...

    p.s. My two youngest daughters have the same tu-tu suit! We are meant to be friends!!

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  27. ClareJune 3, 2008 at 4:36 PM

    How special Kim! I love the photos, and your words are just so heart felt. Thank you for sharing this with us. We missed you today! I hope Kate is feeling better soon! XOXO, Clare

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  28. DeniseJune 3, 2008 at 4:47 PM

    What a beautiful post Kim...Happy Birthday Kate!

    Kisses and hugs from Maggie and me~

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  29. JenniferJune 3, 2008 at 4:54 PM

    Such an incredibly beautiful post!! Little Miss Kate is SO blessed to have such a terrific mom! Happiest Birthday wishes to your sweet little one!

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  30. DawnJune 3, 2008 at 5:46 PM

    Happy Birthday to your sweet Kate. Beautiful words you wrote. Hope Kate feels better soon!

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  31. AnonymousJune 3, 2008 at 5:53 PM

    Your post made me cry. Every year on Ellie's birthday her birth mother weighs heavy on my heart. I wonder many of the same things you do.

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  32. Football and Fried RiceJune 3, 2008 at 6:12 PM

    oh, sweet baby girl - get better soon! I love your list of "I wonders" & can't help but wonder the same things..

    I don't think our "Kims" are the same - cause my Kim (from TX) doesn't have a private blog.....You could just give her a shout out on your blog; she'll find you!!

    And YES!! We are SN - for up to a three year old! We have had our Medical Conditions Checklist in for almost 9 months....and our agency has had a lot of SN referrals this year ;D

    Happy 2nd Birthday, Miss Kate Emerson!!

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  33. The Princess's MommyJune 3, 2008 at 6:13 PM

    Hi Kim!
    Thanks for visiting our blog! You are right...our girls have the same sweet cheeks and adorable dimples! She is just beautiful!

    Happy Happy Birthday, Kate!

    Monica and Lily Mei

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  34. Steffie B.June 3, 2008 at 6:42 PM

    Beautiful post Kim.....I so understand your feelings of wonder!

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  35. StefanieJune 3, 2008 at 6:49 PM

    Happy Birthday, Kate!! So sorry she's feeling poorly, looks like she cheered up for the photo session :) Hope she's feeling better SOON!
    Thanks you for putting into words what so many of us adoptive mamas 'wonder'... you are so eloquent :)

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  36. staciJune 3, 2008 at 7:32 PM

    Happy Birthday Katie Ru - I feel so lucky to be a part of you life. I love you and your mommy too! love, aunt staci

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  37. NancyJune 3, 2008 at 7:38 PM

    Happy, Happy Birthday Kate Emerson!!!

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  38. Hope for LucyJune 3, 2008 at 7:47 PM

    Happy Birthday Kate.....you are precious.
    I hope you feel better soon.

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  39. AdeleJune 3, 2008 at 7:57 PM

    These words made me cry. I have wondered those same exact things about my own daughter. I love how you put those feelings into words.
    Kate Emerson looks so beautiful in these photos. I would never have known she was not feeling well. She is just so precious and a true gift from God. I hope her 2nd Birthday is everyhing and more!

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  40. DaniellaJune 3, 2008 at 8:09 PM

    Beautiful girls, beautiful words. Happy Birthday Kate Emerson.

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  41. JodeeJune 3, 2008 at 8:36 PM

    What a wonderful post! Adoption is such an amazing thing and Kate Emerson is so lucky to have you, Dave and the boys for her forever family!

    I love the first picture too!

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  42. MelissaJune 3, 2008 at 9:03 PM

    Happy Birthday Kate! I hope she feels better soon!

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  43. AnonymousJune 3, 2008 at 9:10 PM

    I wonder the same things about EllaKate too. I am so thankful God chose each of us to be our precious one's mom. What an unmeasurable blessing!!! I sure hope Kate is feeling better by tomorrow. Bless you and your family on this special day!

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  44. LaLaJune 3, 2008 at 9:21 PM

    What a beautiful post....I too think of Annslee's birth/first parents often.

    Happy Birthday sweet girl!!

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  45. HeatherJune 3, 2008 at 9:23 PM

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KATE!! Feel better soon sweetheart. I think she looks just beautiful, fever or no fever!

    Kim, I wonder too...all the time.

    Love to you all,
    Heather

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  46. AnonymousJune 3, 2008 at 9:29 PM

    So well said . . . beautiful.

    Jennifer, mommy to Adrienne

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  47. ErinJune 3, 2008 at 9:36 PM

    Your thoughts brought tears to my eyes. Kate has such a happy life, Kimber. Any mother would be so grateful to know that their child is so very loved. I think that Kate's mother somehow does feel this. Beautiful words! Happy Birthday to cute little Kate!

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  48. LadybugsmomJune 3, 2008 at 9:54 PM

    Oh Kim...how lovely so inspiring. Thanks for sharing such beautiful words and lovely pictures...such a special day. I never realized how much I would think of Ellie Lu's birth mother and wonder myself and I am sure I will continue to think of her and wonder...
    Emily

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  49. SheriJune 3, 2008 at 9:54 PM

    Happy 2nd Birthday Kate! What beautiful pictures of a very special little girl. Kim - what you wrote is so true of what so many of us wonder. Thanks for so wonderfully putting it into words. Hope Kate is feeling better very soon!

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  50. StacieJune 3, 2008 at 10:10 PM

    Happy Birthday Kate!! Oh she looks just beautiful! This post was amazing... your words were perfect- I wonder the same things on a daily basis.


    Zoey's book arrived today- it is adorable and she had so many questions...mainly where the "Dada was" :-)! She totally related to the mama and baby looking different!

    Thank you sooo much! A thank you will follow but i just wanted to let you know we got it and so APPRECIATE your kindness and generosity!

    XOXO~
    stacie and zoey

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  51. kitchuJune 3, 2008 at 10:20 PM

    What an incredible post. And sick or not, your girl is stunning. Happy 2nd birthday!

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  52. LeslieJune 3, 2008 at 10:38 PM

    I have wondered those same thoughts this week myself.
    I hope Miss Kate is feeling better now! Happy Birthday Sweetheart!

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  53. JaniceJune 4, 2008 at 12:04 AM

    Hold on a second while I get a tissue and wipe away my tears! Such beautiful words for a beautiful daughter! Happy 2nd Birthday Sweet Kate!!!!

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  54. Dawn S.June 4, 2008 at 4:28 AM

    Aww, happy birthday!! And I wonder, too. What lovely words. Did you write that?

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  55. KristinJune 4, 2008 at 7:15 AM

    Beautiful and truly lovely!

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  56. AnonymousJune 4, 2008 at 9:18 AM

    Happy 2nd Birthday Kate! Beautiful
    pictures. Hope Kate is feeling better!

    Love,
    Aunt Doonie

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  57. Jewels of My HeartJune 4, 2008 at 9:35 AM

    Kate Emerson is breathtaking.... the first pic is just so beautiful... your words, your heart gave me chills and I found myself aching for my children's birth Moms.... oh, how we are blessed to hold our children in our arms... oh, how I thank them for, as you said, their selfless love.... God's peace to these precious women.
    Happy Birthday sweet Katie Ru

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  58. Jewels of My HeartJune 4, 2008 at 9:36 AM

    ohhhh, I will pray for your baby to be all better very soon.
    Hugs

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  59. The Byrd's NestJune 4, 2008 at 10:17 AM

    Oh...I pray she is feeling better. Poor little princess!

    I too wonder those same things.

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  60. LeslieJune 4, 2008 at 12:12 PM

    Happy Birthday Kate. Your even Beautiful when your not feeling 100%. Hope your feeling better soon. I can't believe she is already 2.

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  61. Olivia: (mostly) Happy HomemakerJune 4, 2008 at 12:33 PM

    Happy Birthday Kate!

    What a lovely post, Kimber.

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  62. Jeff and AmyJune 4, 2008 at 1:51 PM

    Happy Birthday Kate, hope you get to feeling better soon :) God has truly blessed us in many ways, not only through our daughters but showing us how to love and pray for that special woman who gave life to the ones we love so dearly.

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  63. MelanieJune 4, 2008 at 2:04 PM

    Happy Birthday Little Kate! What a beautiful post, Kim. As an adoptive mother..you can't help but wonder.


    By the way, the blanket you asked about is indeed a teddy bear that was on Myah's bed. Leslie had purchased it at a second hand shop, I believe.

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  64. jenniferJune 4, 2008 at 2:35 PM

    What a beautiful post.

    Happy Birthday Kate!

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  65. AnonymousJune 4, 2008 at 3:20 PM

    Happy Happy Birthday to your beautiful Kate. Your photos are so lovely and your poem very touching. Thank you for sharing her special day with all of us. I hope she feels better soon!
    Love, Dale

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  66. my3 kidsJune 4, 2008 at 7:49 PM

    That was beautiful. Happy 2nd Birthday Kate...feel better soon little one!

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  67. AnonymousJune 4, 2008 at 9:02 PM

    beautiful post.
    Terri

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  68. ShanaJune 5, 2008 at 1:19 PM

    Happy 2nd Birthday, Beautiful Miss Kate!!!

    Kim, your photos are gorgeous, and what you wrote really touched my heart... as I think of all the same things this time of year.

    I'm sorry this is late (I was in the hospital)- but I was thinking of Kate and her very special birthday!

    Hugs, Shana :)

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  69. BridgetJune 5, 2008 at 3:35 PM

    Happy Belated Birthday Kate. You look lovely - feeling sick or not. Kim I loved the post - I echo the same questions and thoughts about Lucy's birth mother. Hope Kate is feeling better!

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